SASHA of VINITSA
August 2, 2013
My dearest warrior king, Sasha, I miss you so much.
I can hardly believe an entire year has passed already since you became one of heaven's most precious angels.
I sat on the deck today remembering you and another little white butterfly made its appearance.
I will believe it was you passing by one more time.
I love you, sweet angel.
Mum
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August 2, 2014
My dear sweet, sweet Sasha, another year has passed,
yet you remain in my heart, soul and memories as if it were only yesterday we said goodbye.
Your picture always sits in front of me and every day, I kiss you, missing you.
Such a brave young warrior, taken much too soon.
Wherever you are, know that I love you, my sweet angel king!
Mum
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August 2, 2015
Dear sweet little Sasha,
Three years have passed, yet you remain in my heart and soul every single day.
I still tell your story to people whom I meet along the way,
preserving your memory and telling of your staunch will to survive.
Yes, indeed, you were brave, strong, loyal and beautiful and I am certain,
wherever your spirit now flies, you continue to shine brilliantly amongst the stars!
I loved you yesterday, today and will love you forever.
Sleep peacefully, Angel.
Love, Mum.
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August 2, 2016
My sweet little Angel, Sasha,
Once more, another year passes and I wonder what it would have been like, if you had survived.
Whether it was Menander or Chaucer, who coined the phrase,
"Time heals all wounds,"
I tend to disagree with them.
Missing you as much today, if not more, than four years ago...
I pray, you somehow know how much you are loved
and that wherever your sweet soul is flying,
it is free, happy, peaceful and
somehow, remembering me.
I love you, dear sweet Sasha, now and forever!
Sleep peacefully, my Warrior King,
With all my love and hope,
Mum.
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August 2, 2017
My Dearest little Angel Sasha,
Not a single day has passed, in these five long years, that I fail to remember you.
My favorite portrait of you, hangs on the wall, directly in front of me.
Another photo of you, as you were healing in Varna, looking out your favorite window,
adorns my laptop screen;
and each and every day, I whisper,
Sasha, I love you and miss you
and tears form in my eyes.
If there was another way of saying,
I love you,
I would use it, but there is only one way to say it,
so I will say it again,
Continue to rest peacefully, my little Warrior King and know,
I will always love you and miss you.
Mum
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August 2, 2018
My Dearest Sweet Sasha,
It's hard to believe, 6 years have gone by, since you left us.
You were so incredibly special, strong and determined to survive.
When I awoke this morning, I remembered holding you in my arms,
watching you fight, for each breath, as the tears welled, in my eyes.
I can never stop wondering, what may have been different, had you lived longer.
My sweetest angel, again, I will remember you every day, I live and
love you until my last breath.
You were my sweet, little angel warrior and
I wish you continued peace, in your rest, dearest Sasha.
I love and will always miss you, my sweet angel.
Mum
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August 2, 2019
My Dearest Little Sweet Angel Sasha,
Another summer comes and remembers your passing.
Another flood of tears, even though it is 7 years.
Your portrait, still graces the wall in front of me and a smaller photo over my bed.
Everywhere I look, I see you, as you were:
beautiful, strong, resilient - my little warrior king.
I keep you forever alive within my soul,
remembering your determination, whether it was using your front strength,
to pull yourself up a flight of slippery stairs
or taking the short route, on the way down, sliding yourself gracefully and landing without a thump!
You were an amazing, wonderful and brilliant little feline!
Stubborn, resourceful and never giving in to a battle.
Sleep in grace and beauty, my dear Sasha
and know, you are never forgotten, not for a single day.
As always, I love you and miss you, my angel.
Until we meet again, may our God keep you under his wings!
All my love, forever and a day.
Mum
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August 2, 2020
My Dearest Angel Sasha,
Last night, like an internal alarm clock, I dreamt of you.
The sun was shining and we were on the deck, soaking in the summer sun.
I wanted to go down to the beach to rest in the hot sand, but I remembered you.
Instead, I sat with you in my lap, stroking your long fur,
listening to your last breaths slowly slip away
and I woke up crying.
There is not a single day that goes by, that you are not remembered.
There are photos of you everywhere in the house with
your grace and courage shining through every image.
As each year passes and I grow older, I can only love you more.
Love is eternal.
The pain still leaves a knot in my stomach, my heart still skips a beat and
tears still fall for you, my beautiful Sasha of Vinitsa, Warrior King.
My hope remains, perhaps one day, we shall be reunited.
May you be resting under His wings and enjoying the life you deserved.
All my love, forever and a day, I kiss you goodnight, one more time.
All my love,
Mum
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August 2, 2021
My Dearest Sweet Angel Sasha,
One can hardly fathom nine long years have passed.
In some ways, time stood still after you released your spirit and
nothing has ever been the same since.
Your photos still grace my house and my laptops.
I say good morning and good night to your photos,
every day and every night and
still cry when I think of all the suffering you went through,
but remained so stoic and brave throughout it all.
I watch little videos of you running around with your little wheels and
still laugh when I remember you chasing a squirrel,
hitting a raised crack in the cement and
flying out of the cart, looking dismayed and embarrassed that a little squirrel outran you!
I used to love when you wanted to go out and
would meow and sit at the front door, until I got your cart.
You loved those wheels and were a little hot-rodder in it!
Oh, sweet Sasha, your mum is getting older too and
it may not be much longer before we are reunited.
No matter how many years pass, you will always remain in my heart and soul.
I loved you when I first saw you and will love you until the end of days.
Again, my sweet Prince, I kiss you goodnight and pray you are in a better place.
All my love forever,
Mum
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August 2, 2022
My Dear Sweet Little Warrior King Angel,
It is now 10 years since you left this world and not a single day has passed -
in all those 10 years - that my heart didn't break, every day I remembered you.
Tears still fall, as I remember all you went through and
how bravely you fought to stay alive another day.
Every time I see a little white butterfly,
I like to believe it's your soul fluttering by,
to somehow let me know, you are happy and at rest.
I remember how happy you made Uncle Joe,
when I brought you to visit him when he was so ill.
Like you, he was brave, never complained and loved every little animal and insect that was ever created.
Photos of you are all over the house and every morning I greet you and
every evening, kiss you goodnight.
Loving you always and forever,
holding you close in my heart and soul,
until we meet again.
Loving you for all eternity and a day, I kiss your sweet head.
All my love forever,
Mum
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October 23, 2023
Dear Sweet Sasha, I didn't forget you my little angel,
I was thinking about you constantly, as I watched Za'Harina slowly become weaker and weaker.
You only met Za'Harina and her twin sister Phaedra once,
on your last visit to Crawford Animal Hospital, on July 13, 2012.
They were two little tiny kittens who I fell in love with, but couldn't bring home.
It wouldn't have been fair to you, to have to contend with two new kittens in your state.
It wouldn't have been fair to them, to isolate them, so they wouldn't disturb you.
A month after you left us, I called Crawford and asked if the two kittens were still there.
Much to my amazement, they still had not been adopted.
I took the train to Lynbrook and brought them home.
On October 3, 2023, at 11 years old, little Za'Harina joined you in heaven.
It's taken me this long to be able to come here with my yearly note to you.
All the painful wounds opened again
and I miss you even more now than I did before.
One day, we shall all be together again!
All my love forever and a day,
Mum
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